I'm Ready

I want to actually feel something.

Everything seems so detached-- like nothing's actually real.

It's like you're walking but you have no destination. Like you're reaching out, trying to grab onto something-- anything. I don't think right now is real. I'm confused. I'm thinking, I'm breathing, I feel the air against my skin...

...but I just don't feel it feel it. 

Oh gosh, I sound so delusional, crazy. But I just want to feel something, an emotion, maybe, that's so strong it would fill up my whole being for a moment. It becomes my reality even for just a second. Just enough for me to remember that moment when I'm drunk and high of emotions that every part, cell, and atom in me feels it.

And I'm ready. I'm ready to open up to the world and accept all the possibilities.

I'm ready.